Honia-Heal Afrika Initiative (HAI)

I have learnt that ,the people you love won’t love you the same,
I have come to the understanding that ,they will never take you seriously ,
I have learnt that they will never care, as much as I do or show concern,
I have learnt to except, less if nothing from people who claim to love me.

My heart is shuttered beyond repair,the pain of being ignored is overwhelming ,
They say am an over thinker, thinking about staff that don’t exist,
But they know that I know, they are doing what they are doing intentionally,
They say I get angry over nothing, like ignoring my texts and pleas.
They pretend as if nothing happened, as if everything is normal,
They want me to love them like before, even when they are breaking me.

They accept their sweet response, when they can’t even treat me like I do them,
They accept everything to be okay, even when the love that existed is fading.
My heart is giving  up, it’s letting go of this  thing they call love,
My heart is closing, and can never accept whatever you want it to accept,
My mind can see everything else, you want it to see and watch,
My world is shutting to a point of no re opening, for the pressure is too much.

Am gonna let you do your thing, give you peace you have been craving for.
They say true love is when you let  them go, and be happy if that’s what they want,
Am gonna give you your freedom, for I prefer that than silence,
I hope you learn to treat others ,like you wanna them treat you.

Even when I feel down, I won’t come crying to you, or asking for advice,
I will live my life like you never existed ,but I know it will be hard ,
Since you exist in my heart, I can never stop loving you at all,
May you accidentally find my messages, delete them and act like you never saw them,
For I have learnt  to accept less ,if nothing from the people I love.

By wambui Rhoda